After my divorce to James I found myself caught in a vicious cycle. For whatever reason, i repeatedly went back to him. Things would be good for a few weeks, but then the same problems and issues from our marriage would arise and we would break up. This went on for 8 long months. Each time we broke up was very painful, yet i kept submitting myself to being hurt over and over again. As I've thought about this I've come to realize that it was fear that was taking me back to him. Fear of the unknown, fear of being single for the rest of my life, fear that I wouldn't find anyone as good as him etc. What I was lacking all along was faith. My patriarchal blessing says that the Lord will sustain me in any righteous desire of my heart...if I will abide by the principles of the Gospel of Jesus Christ. Well, I'm doing my best to live the gospel, and the Lord knows the righteous desires of my heart, so now I just have to be patient, and watch the Lord work his miracles. I'm finally free from fear...faith has made me free at last!
I hope you are enjoying the experience of raising your cute kids!! I HATE finding out about rotten things (like divorce) happening to people I care about!!! The Gospel of Jesus Christ and my Faith in the Truth that I have gained from what I have been taught by being a member of The Church Of Jesus Christ Of Latter-Day Saints (it's what keeps me hanging around this place)!!
ReplyDeleteWell, I guess I am the KING OF BRIDGE BURNING, in reference to our Facebook relationship, I guess this blog is going to be able to communicate with you, Shannon (my "Les Miz" friend).
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